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This holiday season, I will be a better me

This holiday season, I’ll do a lot of things. I’ll play with my son in the freezing cold, watch The Charlie Brown Christmas show with him, and I’ll buy him something that he doesn’t need, anticipating the joy on his face when he sees that he has a present a few presents too many presents under our tree. We’ll go to the local botanical gardens, and to the zoo, because both have breathtaking holiday light displays. Robert and I will drink hot chocolate, and try to coax Tucker into tasting some.

Tuck and Don

Tucker and snowman Don

We’ll sled, build snowmen if there’s snow, and Lego robots if there’s not.
We’ll arrive at the airport early for once, so that we don’t miss our flight. Again. We’ll arrive at our destination, and I’ll feel home. In other words, we’ll do the obvious holiday things. I also hope to do some less obvious things this holiday season.

I hope to breathe deeply and easily. Exhale anxiety and exhaustion. Inhale hope. Contentment. Peace. Embrace the loveliness of each family member. To find amusement rather than annoyance in their quirks and assumptions.

I’ll be honest. With others. Myself. Open. Free. Me.

I will remember that they mean well. I’ll remember that them meaning well does not have to be the end of the conversation.
I will not attempt to easily swallow the hurt, and I will not hold it. I will not spew that hurt as a shield.

This year, rather than taking the easier path of nodding and smiling while crumbling inside, I’ll choose to utter the words “Hm. Maybe, but it’s okay if he doesn’t” in response to somebody telling me that Tucker will catch up.

I’m going to be brave and disagree out-loud with “boys who stay home with their mothers don’t learn to speak because mom anticipates what he needs, and doesn’t make him ask for it” as “a reasonable theory.”

I will think about the questions. I’ll try to answer.

I will not worry today about where Tucker will sleep at my dad’s house, and comfort myself with the knowledge that if he sleeps with me and a too-crowded, ousted Robert, that that is okay. I’ll remember gratitude at having a husband who takes one for the team in situations like this.

I’ll remember the importance of making time for friends, when it feels like there is no time, and that there are too many unknown stories to reconnect anyway. I’ll remember that I’ve felt the same, before, and realized later that we always do. We always do reconnect, even with too many stories and missed life events between us.

I’ll remember to bundle up, and go outside when Tucker is awake in a too early time zone, rather than trying to keep him quiet with videos. I’ll remember that my brothers wake early, and call them for a breakfast meeting, rather than stressing while waiting for unknown plans to be revealed.

This is the first Christmas that Tucker has seen holiday lights and says “Christmas!” (or close enough)

This is the year that I will be my best me, and not compare him to his cousin.

This year, I will not let my guilt over Tucker not being typical seep into our meals, conversations, or my soul. This year, I will turn my back on sadness and worry. I will embrace my family. Tucker’s family. I will speak when I should, and take a walk when silence wins.

I’ll remember that they may have insight and new perspective on Tucker’s upcoming transition into kindergarten.

I will not just assume that they don’t understand. I’ll take the time, and the unknown, and try to help them to understand, if they want to. And when it feels that they don’t, I’ll remember we’re in a crowded house, and that the worry of our host may simply be over the fact that the toilet overflowed that morning.

I will remember that they celebrated and loved him, before he was even here.

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I will remember the bliss on their faces, when they first met him.

baby laugh tucker

I will remember that they love him, still, even though they don’t necessarily know, or understand.

They’ll love nowhim. Because nowhim is magic.

Tucker sledding

I will remember.

This, and every, holiday season, I will make Christmas magical for Tucker.  I will dance with him beneath fairy lights, warm his freezing ungloved hands on my belly, and make sure that he knows the importance of family, while also knowing when to simply nod, smile, and walk away from them.

This holiday season, I will be a better me.

What do you hope for this holiday season?

Better Me w boy

This has been a Finish the Sentence Friday post. Today’s sentence is either “This holiday season I will…” or “My favorite Christmas tradition is…”
Your amazing hosts:

Janine: Janine’s Confessions of a Mommyaholic
Kate: Can I get another bottle of whine?
Stephanie: Mommy, for Real
me: finding ninee
We’re also doing something new, where you, too can be a co-host if we select your submitted sentence to use! This week’s guest co-host is Lizzi, from Considerings for her sentence “My favorite Christmas tradition is…” YAYYY, for Lizzi!

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  • Janine Huldie - You totally had me crying by the end of this and seriously I know you are the best mother ever to Tucker now and always. And your Christmas with him will be perfect, because you won’t let it be any other way. Seriously, I know this with all my heart!! 🙂December 12, 2013 – 10:16 pmReplyCancel

  • Dana - Print this out to remind yourself of the wonderful things you’ve written here. Take it with you and live in the moment, and enjoy Christmas with your family. Perfect post, Kristi.

    Oh, and please be careful around any cots you may encounter over the holidays. You just cannot type with no hands.December 12, 2013 – 10:20 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Janine,
    Sorry to make you cry but also so glad that you get it and appreciate the assurance that Tucker’s Christmas will be great!December 12, 2013 – 10:33 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Aw. DANA
    I really should print it and read it often…Thank you.
    HAHA and flip-off to the cots!!! 🙂December 12, 2013 – 10:34 pmReplyCancel

  • Stephanie @ Mommy, for Real. - This is so heartfelt and lovely. I agree that you should print it out and keep it somewhere safe. It is a testament to where you are right now, and you should re-read it years down the road to remember the hopes and struggles of this moment.

    And also- are you coming to CO at all? How amazing would it be if we could meet IRL? The Denver Zoo Lights is pretty kick-ass…just sayin’.December 12, 2013 – 10:44 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Steph,
    I am! We are! I’ll PM you because yes, that would be amazing…And thanks, huge for the reminder to remember!December 12, 2013 – 10:50 pmReplyCancel

  • Sarah | LeftBrainBuddha - Oh Kristi, this is so beautiful. “I hope to breathe deeply and easily. Exhale anxiety and exhaustion. Inhale hope. Contentment. Peace.” LOVE.

    You’re awesome. xoxoDecember 12, 2013 – 11:03 pmReplyCancel

  • Chris Carter - Ah yes… Although I don’t have the same issues and same family and same situations that you have- I nodded all the way through this piece. Because, it’s amazing how difficult and stressful it can be around people/family that are “outside” our worlds and don’t see/understand/respect what’s in it.

    Yes- you stand up high in your best you! You radiate love and goodness and strength. You love the ones closest to you- the ones you will go home with and spend every waking day with and know that your safety zone will be waiting your return.

    Find comfort in believing that you know best- and that your Tucker is EXACTLY who he is and where he needs to be. In bed with you…playing outside…being his glorious beautiful perfect self. No comparison. No need.December 12, 2013 – 11:17 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Sarah, Thank you. May it all come true, huh?


    Chris,
    What you said is almost to perfect to reply to, point, by point. Family is stressful, and amazing, no matter what, I guess… Yes to outside and breathing. xo for that. big.December 12, 2013 – 11:25 pmReplyCancel

  • Real Life Parenting - What a wonderful post, Kristi!! I love that you’re allowing yourself to be in the moment … to let down your defenses but to also defend what is honest and real. You are clearly the most perfect mother for Tucker.

    I loved this. Loved it.December 12, 2013 – 11:26 pmReplyCancel

  • Sarah - SO beautiful! What a beautiful infant he was!

    So much of what you worry about in family interactions I do, too. I have a very high-achieving extended family, and it’s always been SO HARD that Maggie does not develop at the same rate as her cousins.

    Ugh, I love my family so much, but for awhile there I wanted to keep my distance. Things are better now.

    I, too, hope you find peace and contentment. And that I can be a willing participant in outdoor play.December 12, 2013 – 11:27 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - RLP,
    Not sure about the perfect mother thing but thank you! It’s SO hard to let down our defenses!!!

    ___
    Sarah,
    He was a beautiful infant, huh? Cried a bit posting that…
    I don’t blame you for wanting to keep your distance when Maggie was younger. It’s just hard!!!December 12, 2013 – 11:40 pmReplyCancel

  • Out One Ear - Linda Atwell - I just plain love this. I would love to steal your words and write them again and again and again because I can relate to every single one of them.

    Merry Christmas to you, Robert, and Tucker (and your entire extended family too!)December 13, 2013 – 1:16 amReplyCancel

  • Considerer - GOOD FOR YOU – my dear, you Have A Plan. And a damn good one at that. Keep repeating those things you’ve decided, and make them happen. Christmas is hard, but you’ve already chosen a path which includes all the magicky goodness and loveliness and wonderfulness…now you just need to walk it.

    HUGE respect to you for deciding that this year you won’t stay silent. That you’ll speak up and challenge misconceptions and unintentional cruelties. That you’ll seek to educate, compassionately and with patience and without knee-jerk reactions. And go for walks as often as you need to.

    The thing is, though, whilst you encounter so many people suggesting that Tucker needs to ‘catch up’, I’m glad you know not to get (too) hooked into that yourself, because who he is NOW is every perfect bit of Tucker-y loveliness he needs to be – and why would anyone waste time lamenting over a starchy old concept that there is any kind of ‘should be’ with kids? It baffles me because they miss out on NowHim, which sucks. He is absolutely, wonderfully himself.

    I wish you many dances in the sparkling snow with your wonderful boy, under fairy lights, while the spirit of Christmas zings around you and weaves everything together to make it wrap-around perfect.

    (Oh, and to echo Dana – please don’t break yourself more falling off the cot again…)December 13, 2013 – 2:14 amReplyCancel

  • Lisa @ Golden Spoons - Nowhim is definitely magic!! When I was growing up with psoriasis, I used to get so frustrated by the questions and the comments that weren’t meant to be hurtful but were. I finally got to a place with it where I decided to answer the questions very factually. I know it is a very different situation, but I found that it helped me as much as it helped others. I wasn’t just swallowing the hurt. I was defending myself – albeit in an civil and educational way – and ,hopefully, educating others. Anyway, I hope your Christmas is wonderful, and joyful, and peaceful!December 13, 2013 – 6:35 amReplyCancel

  • Yvonne - Kristi, this is an amazing post. Beautiful. I loved these lines: “I will remember that they mean well. I’ll remember that them meaning well does not have to be the end of the conversation.
    I will not attempt to easily swallow the hurt, and I will not hold it. I will not spew that hurt as a shield.”

    If we all remembered that each moment of every day we really wouldn’t need much else. It says it all.December 13, 2013 – 6:42 amReplyCancel

  • Courtney - Sniff sniff. Beautiful. XxooDecember 13, 2013 – 7:40 amReplyCancel

  • Ilene - I absolutely love this post. Different kids here and different family situations here but so many of the same feelings. What you describe here are the shades of gray – the ability to disagree out loud while trying to remember that the people around you probably do mean well. Being outspoken yet not getting on the defensive. And knowing in your heart what your kids really need in spite of a lot of well meaning advice. I could go on and on and on but let me just say this is really stated.December 13, 2013 – 8:37 amReplyCancel

  • Kelly McKenzie - Yes – you must print this out and carry it with you at all times over the next few weeks. Just pop it into your pocket and pull it out for a quiet consult should times get rough.
    Stunning post.December 13, 2013 – 10:07 amReplyCancel

  • Tamara - This holiday season, I hope for all of that and more for you. My heart is nearly overflowing here.
    Nowhim and Nowyou are pretty magical. Where’s my damn camera?December 13, 2013 – 10:17 amReplyCancel

  • Kerri @ Undiagnosed but Okay - First I have to say that Boo’s future husband is freaking gorgeous. He has the best eyes and smile. And since this year was Boo’s first approximation of Christmas when she sees lights they continue to be perfect for one another!

    Okay got that off my chest. Can I just say how I love this post? Seriously your best ever. Now go enjoy those fairy lightsDecember 13, 2013 – 10:52 amReplyCancel

  • Beth Teliho - Fuck. This made me cry. But in a sweet way. You’re such an incredible mama. And one the strongest, most inspiring women I know. Good for you! For all of these goals. I hate when people spout off their ignorance. It’s so deflating and infuriating. But not this year. You got this. YOU GOT THIS.December 13, 2013 – 3:04 pmReplyCancel

  • meeshie - Ohhh my gosh he was a cute baby. If the family cannot learn to be supportive you can come have the holidays with me. After this year I think I’m boycotting the in-laws. They are just as bad.. if for different issues.

    Honestly.. you cannot let the ignorance of others ruin your joy in the holidays with your child. It’s not worth it.December 13, 2013 – 6:36 pmReplyCancel

  • Lizzy - Muddle-Headed Mamma - Brilliantly written, full of raw honesty and a mother’s fierce and protective love. I hung onto every word. Your boy has got the most beautiful smile – he looks so much like you in photos I have seen of you. I can’t believe people actually think that kids that stay home with their mums don’t learn to speak. People really do say the most stupid things. As if speaking were more important that feeling emotionally secure anyway. Tell them to have a nice cup of shut the f*ck up, I say! Sending you and Tucker best wishes for a wonderful, merry Christmas. xxDecember 13, 2013 – 6:58 pmReplyCancel

  • Katia - Whenever I don’t write an FTSF post I’m a little disappointed with myself, but then I read yours and I’m usually happy I didn’t because I feel like you’ve said it all. And so much better. That happened again today. Amen to every word. For you. For me. :-)Have a wonderful holiday, print this post out and go back to it whenever you need recharging.December 13, 2013 – 7:13 pmReplyCancel

  • Natalie - The Cat Lady Sings - Shoot, I should tattoo some of this advice to my forehead for Christmas.
    And I’m hoping that all of these Christmas resolutions come true for you. Your love for your son is beautiful to read about.December 13, 2013 – 8:16 pmReplyCancel

  • Lisa Forever Five Blog - Good Lord, Kristi. I cannot believe that people say those things to you about Tucker. Actually, I can believe it. I guess I just can’t imagine how it must feel to hear it, repeatedly. Without having gone through what you have, I feel infuriated at whoever “they” are for having the nerve to say something like that about Tucker! And about you. If these are the comments that are flying at you while in close quarters, I think you deserve a free pass to do all of the things you said you would in this post or not. Santa should put an addition on your dad’s house this year, but in the meantime, I send you a big cyber hug.December 13, 2013 – 9:10 pmReplyCancel

  • Jennie - This is the best post I ever have read when it comes to dealing with family and special needs ever. I don’t comment but read everything you write and want to say thank you for saving me.December 13, 2013 – 9:27 pmReplyCancel

  • Rachel - I remember joking about how hard it can be to go home. Some of the things that you wrote about here were in our complaints about the holiday. But, in this post, you aren’t just making fun or complaining — you have allowed space for hope while still acknowledging your fears and disappointments. It’s a tricky, beautiful balance, which leaves me in awe. I want you to print this out and read it, if things get hard in tight quarters. The you here will sustain the you there.December 13, 2013 – 9:54 pmReplyCancel

  • Bianca @ Track Pants and a Tot - And once again another thought provoking post. Thank you again. You always remind me to live in the now. So sweet that your little man said Christmas. Also I commend you for remembering to be patient around people who don’t understand. I know I could use some patience, ok, a lot.December 13, 2013 – 10:21 pmReplyCancel

  • Mytwicebakedpotato - Awesome reminder 🙂
    I usually choke my words and thoughts back and forget that “they” don’t understand. It isn’t for lack of love but lack of experience. Thanks for writing this 🙂December 14, 2013 – 12:13 amReplyCancel

  • Brittnei - I know that your son is autistic, but it amazes me how I can find some similarities in what I deal with my family and my son hasn’t been diagnosed as such. I wonder when people become extended family if there is something inside of them that says “I’ve been around and I know everything better than you so let me tell you how to be a parent and do things right.” LOL. You sound like time has really matured you. I believe it will do the same for me. I know it already has. I’m already not the way I was last year or even yesterday 🙂December 14, 2013 – 1:46 amReplyCancel

  • JenKehl - My Skewed View - You’re so much better. I know you may not feel like it, but you are so on your a game. The way you write about Tucker and your relationships is so true, and not true like I agree (but i do) but like honest. It’s hard. I can’t imagine (I can a little) Today my mom said she was worried about Isaiah because his tick is really bad now, it comes and goes. I told her the dr said it was fine, that’s just what happens and always will probably, of course she told me I should see another dr.
    Meanwhile… tell anyone who says boys who stay home with their moms…
    Isaiah has been at home with me for 8 years and I can’t get him to stop talking.
    Tucker is perfect and beautiful and that smile of his! Man, gorgeous, contagious, love.
    You amaze me awesome mama.December 14, 2013 – 2:04 amReplyCancel

  • Tarana - He’s such a sweetie! Your decision to speak out loud about what you don’t agree with, rather than just smiling at ignorant things people say, will definitely make you feel better. Happy holidays!December 14, 2013 – 7:50 amReplyCancel

  • Joy @ i can say mama - And you will be so good, Kristi, when you do it exactly like this. LOVE your post, my friend! Big hugs!December 14, 2013 – 9:33 amReplyCancel

  • Lisa @ The Meaning of Me - Wow. What a wonderful post!December 14, 2013 – 4:13 pmReplyCancel

  • Michellette Mimi Green - All the best to you and yours during this holiday season. Continue to be the best you and Tucker will be the best him. Nothing else and no one else will matter.December 14, 2013 – 4:40 pmReplyCancel

  • Deb @ Urban Moo Cow - Your writing has an undeniable hold over me. I am crying so hard right now. This makes me want to meet you and Tucker even more IRL. You do such an amazing job of explaining how much you love him. He is going to appreciate that so much some day. So much. xoxoDecember 14, 2013 – 8:57 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Linda,
    AW – Merry Christmas to you, yours and wishing you happiness and peace! May Lindsey and Nick have an amazing one!!!

    Considerer,
    You’re so right that he is perfectly NOWHIM and yes, I will dance with him in the lights, and the snow, and celebrate his Tuckerness…thank you for getting it.

    I HATE MY COMMENT SYSTEM BUT IT WILL BE BETTER SOON, PEEPS.

    Lisa,
    I think there are many similarities, when it comes to the feelings, friend. Many…
    —-
    Yvonne,
    Thank you…not spewing hurt as a shield is huge. Huge…

    Courtney,
    XO

    Ilene,
    I think that’s the hardest part…that they do mean well…

    Kelly,
    Awesome advice, as always. Thanks, you.

    Tamara,
    YES WHERE is your damn camera?????
    —-
    Kerri,
    I know! It’s like fate, these two! If you’d only stop by next time you are in waving distance!

    Beth,
    THANK you. I’m trying to… hard…
    December 15, 2013 – 12:16 amReplyCancel

  • Kim @ WampumHome - Simply Beautiful. So many of us struggle with acceptance and not just for our children but ourselves too. This sounded so much like how I felt for so many years about myself.. never quite felt comfortable in my own skin, UNTIL I learned to smile and nod, yes, just as you mentioned.. best advice I was ever given.. smile and nod. That lesson slowly grew into ‘fake it til you make it’ real. I will say nice things when appropriate, walk away quietly without tears when I am hurt and practice the art of ‘touch’ .. remember a hug, a touch of a hand or shoulder can bring the warmth of one to another. Teaching Tucker (and yourself) to be forgiving of others, kind in the face of unkind will be one of the amazing gifts you can give all year. Be well, be at peace and know you are never alone, more people smile with you than you will ever know.December 15, 2013 – 6:01 amReplyCancel

  • Kenya G. Johnson - Awww Tuck Tuck was a baldy. This was a beautiful post. You are stronger this year I am sure of it. You have all of us and Our Land – that land of empathy and wonder where we’ve been educated and understand. Just remember that there will be ignorance and not intentionally but simply from not understanding. But you’ll will be just fine. Because “back home” you’ll have support and understanding you’ve grown accustomed to come back to. Have a wonderful break and don’t stress, it’s so not worth it.December 15, 2013 – 12:17 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Kim,
    I love the suggestion of adding touch. Thank you for that and for your beautiful comment.December 15, 2013 – 12:29 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Kenya,
    Thanks, my friend. Yeah, Tucker was a baldy for a while. I think I’ll forever remember the feel of his tiny fuzzy head. And you’re right – I do have all of you and Our Land as well!December 15, 2013 – 12:31 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Meeshie,
    You’re so right – it’s not worth it! Hopefully, I’ll remember…

    Lizzy,
    HA to the Tell them to have a nice cup of shut the f*ck up!! Thank you for the encouragement and support. I wish you and your family a very merry Christmas, too. xo

    Katia,
    You’re too kind. Your posts always rock, my friend. Always.

    Natalie,
    I should tattoo it to my forehead too! We’d look so pretty!

    Lisa,
    The thing is, is they’re said with kindness. It just gets me though, as it’s just dumb to say somebody will “catch up.” What does that even mean? Thanks so much and cyber hugs coming right back at ya!

    Jennie,
    XO you.

    Rachel,
    Yes, to the hope! Thanks huge. For getting all of it.
    December 15, 2013 – 12:38 pmReplyCancel

  • Kristi Campbell - Bianca,
    Here’s to patience all around then! Cheers to patience!!

    My TBP,
    I know that you’re right there, too. It’s a good thing to remember, lest we go crazy…

    Brittnei –
    I do know that our kids don’t need to have special needs in order for our families to make us feel alienated and like we are doing everything wrong. Hang in there – you’ve got this, I promise.

    Jen,
    TTTx10! You amaze me right back. So sorry that your mom is being a tool about Isaiah…and thanks for the reminder that he’s been at home with you for 8 years!!

    Tarana,
    Thank you, and happy holidays to you, too!!

    Joy!
    Big big hugs right back. Thanks, you…

    Lisa,
    Thank you!

    Michellette,
    You’re right. Nothing else should matter. Thank you…

    Deb,
    I’d LOVE to meet IRL!! And thanks huge for all of your encouragement!December 15, 2013 – 12:47 pmReplyCancel

  • Jean - How right are you to remind yourself (AND US, AND US, AND US) that how we react to our family is how we’re teaching our children to handle sometimes difficult situations. Have the best Christmas, Kristi and safe travels!December 15, 2013 – 5:01 pmReplyCancel

  • Kathy at kissing the frog - This is so perfect. At a time when we can get caught up in so many things, remembering the simple ones that make your heart happy is the best!December 17, 2013 – 12:00 amReplyCancel

  • Kate Hall - Cutest. Baby. EVER! OMG, I LOVE that picture! So, is that Snowman Don Re? Where’s the Bud Light Lime? And good for you for thinking about the possibilities ahead of time. I go into these situations and am always side-swiped by negatives or platitudes and I never know how to respond. You have an arsenal ready. Go You!December 17, 2013 – 1:15 amReplyCancel

  • Michelle - This is wonderful! You should frame it somewhere! It really is an inspiration to all parents, no matter what their circumstances. I hope to be a better me this holiday season as well. And I absolutely love that picture of Tucker – he is adorable!December 19, 2013 – 10:40 pmReplyCancel

  • Kim - I can see by the smile on your son’s face how deeply he is loved, and much he loves and trusts you.

    Wonderfully said. It can be so difficult, I think, to be different ourselves and to raise children who others have difficulty understanding.

    But you offer the most beautiful gift of all: just you. May your Christmas be very merry and bright!
    I found you via a tweet from Michelle of A Dish of Daily Life.December 20, 2013 – 11:20 amReplyCancel

  • Amber Day Hicks - What a wonderful post, You my darlin’… bless your heart & your son’s… & where’s Tamara’s damn camera??? 🙂 XO. ~A~December 20, 2013 – 8:35 pmReplyCancel

  • catherine gacad - beautiful kristi. now that i’m a soon-to-be mama, i want to strive to be the best me ever. it actually never truly occurred to me before. i simply had these resolutions i wanted to accomplish for the new year, but now it’s different. i want to be a good person, i want to be a role model, someone that my child can say, “i’m so proud of my mother. she is the best.”December 23, 2013 – 11:50 pmReplyCancel

  • Lori Lavender Luz - One of the reasons I’m so drawn to you, Kristi, is that you already are so open, so real, so honest, and SO full of love for you husband and son.

    Many of the sentiments you state here are ones I should remember once in awhile, too.January 1, 2014 – 2:52 pmReplyCancel

  • Mike - Gawd, I love all of your posts but especially the ones where you have the knock you off your socks pictures of Tucker smiling! I felt myself literally light up in that second! That is wonderful of Robert to take one for the team. Your spirituality, depth and seeing the blessing in everything continues to captivate me, Kristi! 🙂February 6, 2014 – 12:14 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Yeah, Tucker smiling is pretty excellent indeed. He’s awesome. And thank you.February 6, 2014 – 9:41 amReplyCancel

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