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I may have run out of tricks to make my husband offer to do the grocery shopping alone, or, even better, with our son Tucker. Him offering to stop on the way home, or after an outing without me doesn’t happen often, but when it does, I feel a sense of accomplishment. Like any good […]

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  • Janine Huldie - Having girls, I don’t have penis issues at the grocery store, but trust me the grocery store and my girls is no day at the beach either. When in doubt, I usually send my husband by himself or go alone while he watches them, because I could write novels on the things they have done in the grocery store. I will just share one of the many finer moments that happened to me when Lily was a toddler and she decided she would undress herself right before I was about to check out. Nothing was finer than having a little old lady tell me that my baby was half naked in the grocery checkout line!!
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  • Kelly L McKenzie - THANK YOU! I am not alone. Picture it – we’re in the liquor store (yes, here in Canada – except in Quebec – you have to buy your booze in a specially designated booze store.Ok this is changing soon here in BC but still…) and strolling the busy aisles looking for wine. My son – age 8 – announces to the entire store that his penis is practising. Uh huh. Practising.
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  • Beth Siebert - It started in the line at the grocery store When my son was happily bouncing around. An elderly black woman began yelling him to behave. I was writing the check as fast as I could, praying to the Lord to survive this ordeal when I explained to the woman, “My son has autism.” She yelled louder, “I do not care what he has I to,d him to be still.”. I took a deep breath and went back to pay the grocer for a quick exit and then it happened…my son ripped the back woman’s wig off. The elderly nearly bald woman hair lay on the floor. My son grabbed me in fear it was a alive. I picked it up, dusted it off and handed it back to the woman apologizing. That woman was so mad and I had not even noticed she wore a wig. My black girl friend told me that black women do in fact wear wigs and Alex had committed the cardinal sin against a black woman that day by pulling her wig off. For me picking between the DMZ between North and South Korea or going to the grocery store. The DMZ seems like a walk in the park. No penis involved but still really embarrassing.May 21, 2015 – 10:22 pmReplyCancel

  • Nicki - Your story about the gum and it being your mom’s fault reminds me of my little guy who is always late to class and says it’s not his fault the bell rings, it’s the principal’s fault, she rings the bell!

    HATE the grocery store. HATE! With kids or without. I go for the wine. And if I happen to pick up a few extra necessities so be it. Told you, haters stick together ;). And also, this is FUNNY! xxx
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  • Emily - Oh hòw I hate the grocery store too. And I can promise you my boys have embarrassed me there on numerous occasions. I joke that we cause a scene wherever we go,except it ain’t no joke.:) personally, I think that tucker story is hilarious and sweet, but yeah I get how you might have been mortified at the time…
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  • Sandy Ramsey - I often wish your mortifying tales weren’t so damn funny! I am sure I have a penis story or two in my old lady memory but I can’t think of any right now or I’d tell you one to make you feel better.
    I hate the grocery store, too. Just in general. I think if I still drank and would be buying wine I might like it better. But only if I could drink it while I was shopping :)
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  • Kenya G. Johnson - LOL!!!!! I was out for my walk and I listened to your post read by a robot. I know that’s cheat reading but I only do it when I feel like i know the readers voice very well. The robot did good. I pretty much chuckled from the time the juicy fruit fell out of your pants. The drawings are the icing on the cake, I couldn’t wait to see them.May 22, 2015 – 7:40 amReplyCancel

  • Elizabeth - LOL! So funny! And so true! There have been many similar times for us, too! Great post! 😀
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  • Allie - I adore your son – he is flipping hilarious – and mom, if you ask a dumb question…

    I wanted to do this prompt, I have so many embarrassing grocery store stories – too many. But it’s miracle I can even comment. I am slammed. Off to pick up my middle schooler, after his final 8th grade walk through the halls. It seems like yesterday that he peed in produce department of Giant.May 22, 2015 – 10:47 amReplyCancel

  • Kerri - I’m sorry but that is freaking hysterical
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  • Lisa @ Golden Spoons - Ha! Obviously, I don’t have boys, but one of my girls did ask me once and very loudly “Mom, what is personal lubricant?” while we were standing in the maxi pad aisle. Now, I do all my grocery shopping online. Seriously, you should try it!
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  • Lisa @ The Meaning of Me - OK, what is it with boys and penis fixing? It doesn’t go away, does it? As they age it turns into things like “adjusting” or “scratching” (because, I’m told, all balls itch). Honestly. And somehow they get away with it. But if we ladies tried that in a public venue? Plus, they can pee anywhere. Hmm. Inequity at its best.May 23, 2015 – 12:35 amReplyCancel

Being 12 years old gave me the gift of coming home to an empty house. Gone were the days of sitters, and, as a newly minted seventh grader whose school was released earlier than my brothers’ were, I had the house to myself for I dunno – an hour? Two hours? That time was mine, […]

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  • Dana - It’s funny how we can be physically alone but feel surrounded by others, or be physically with others but still feel alone. I don’t like feeling that way, and fortunately I don’t very often.

    That guy who called you? CREEPY. I would have peed in my pants.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Funny, sad, and weird and also kinda amazing how we’re with others when alone and only with ourselves in a crowd I think… And yeah,that stupid phone call was awful!!!
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  • Emily - That first story? Scary as shit!! I agree that alone is many things in life, but I also believe we can be alone, but not necessarily lonely and vice versa.
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  • Kelly L McKenzie - I sit here locked alone locked out my damn blog site because of too many phony log-in attempts. However, I’m now glad it happened. I toddled over here and read this remarkable post. I was chilled at the first example, alarmed at the second, crushed with the third and heartwarmed by the fourth. Nice job, Kristi.May 7, 2015 – 11:38 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - UGH UGH to being locked out of your blog and by now, obviously, as I was gifted with reading your post, you’re back in. Thanks, huge, Kelly.
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  • Nicki - I’ve had that happen to me, in the waves. Scary as hell but then also strangely exhilarating. Like you conquered the water or something!
    Amazing vignettes, beautifully told. And yes… you, we, are not alone. Thank you Kristi. <3
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    • Kristi Campbell - The waves! I can remember it so so clearly and yet, tend to forget the power of conquering the water because yes, it was that, or something like the waters saying “fine, it’s okay, you can go” which is almost the same. Thank YOU. <3
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  • Deb - Omg that first story was terrifying. Just the kind of nightmare scenario I was always afraid would happen at that age but never did. Jesus. As for the rest no you are not alone. But you are. But not. I get it. XoMay 8, 2015 – 1:00 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - I love that you get it and always count on you to (with no pressure of course).
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  • Kenya G. Johnson - Awww love your ending! I was thinking about you all at 9:53ish when your e-mail came through and I was trying to write. I was like well I won’t be 4th today 😉

    Oh that was a creepy phone call. I had a stalker in 9th grade. Still no caller ID. I don’t know if the boy eventually told me his name or how it was found out. He went to another school and was already on probation or something like that. At the time daddy either still worked for the depart of Youth Services or he knew someone and once it was “handled” I never got a call again. But I use to think he was somewhere in the shadows at school watching me. Warren Brown. That was the name. I don’t care anything about respecting his privacy. Creep.

    I also had a much younger beach experience where I felt the sand slipping under my feet and couldn’t seem to gain the momentum to walk out of it. I was waist deep and down shore a little out of sight before I was able to get out. No one had notice. Times have certainly changed.May 8, 2015 – 6:00 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Stupid Warren Brown deserves no privacy any longer and honestly, I have to so much wonder what your Daddy or his friends DID to “handle” it. It seems so easy to feel that they handled it when we are young but can you please ask for me? I’d love to know, especially now that I’m the mom handling!!
      Yikes to that you had the same scary sand face tumble experience in the waves!!! Glad we were both okay!!
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  • Bev - Equal parts scary and tugging at your heart. That first story, made my heart speed up a bit reading it. And the one about your son, just breaks my heart. It’s amazing the cruelty we can each have inside of us.
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    • Kristi Campbell - I know – the cruelty breaks me at times. But also that the kids don’t get it and that that being where the beauty in life lies, maybe???
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  • ivy - that first one was terrifying… something similar happened during my after school time… awful memories… I love that your dad came and called the cops… I had a stalker later in life… argh…. I hate that you have to worry so much for your boy…cuz the world… but love that you do… cuz Moms…
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    • Kristi Campbell - UGH to something similar happening to you – sucky!! And more sucky that you had a stalker more recently. But yeah the world and yeah, moms…
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  • christine - The neighborhood in which we lived when I was in middle school reportedly had a peeping tom. In the same (large) neighborhood, a classmate of mine was raped by a stranger while she was babysitting. He broke in through the basement. When we were in 6th grade. Your terrifying story brought all those fears right on back. I hated to be alone, especially at night. Still do, really.

    Funny how being knocked on your ass by a wave helps clarify things. :)

    Still sad that Tucker heard such meanness from a kid.
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    • Kristi Campbell - OM your poor 6th grade friend and poor you and how terrifying!! YIKES. I’m so sorry to have triggered the fear for you and :( and HAPPY that you have a lovely house full of awesome people.
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  • Allie - Love this Kristi (and you are so primed for your retreat:)). I had chills reading about the phone call. And my heart breaks every time I read about the broken mouth:(. And you are definitely not alone. Your tribe has your back!
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    • Kristi Campbell - UGH (unsaid but you know) and yeah, that phone call SUCKED and some little booger telling Tucker he’s broken in any way… yup. Thank you, my tribe and thank you, YOU!
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  • Sarah - terfufying, start to finish.May 8, 2015 – 12:18 pmReplyCancel

  • Sarah - Terrifying!!! What isn’t my phone correcting my typos?May 8, 2015 – 12:20 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Phones are stupid but also smarter than us and try to see whether we are still humans. I think.
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  • Lisa @ Golden Spoons - Wow! That first one totally creeped me out! That must have been so scary. I love that quote. As a mom who rarely gets alone time, I have a whole new appreciation for solitude, but, really, we aren’t alone ever. Most of the time, I ;m glad for that!
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    • Kristi Campbell - So so scary and yeah, I love solitude too but also knowing I’m never really alone!
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  • Elizabeth - The phone call must have been terrifying – it was terrifying to read about it. And then it was so uplifting the idea that our ripples effect people even when we’re alone!
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    • Kristi Campbell - Thanks, Elizabeth – the phone call WAS terrifying. I talked to my dad on the phone tonight and he’d forgotten about it but remembered after reading it and he agreed.
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  • A.J. Goode - I like the way you said that — alone, but not really. When I’m alone in the house because the kids are at school, it’s one thing. When I’m alone because it’s their week with their dad, it’s something completely different.

    And I LOVE the fact that being part of this keeps you from being completely alone.This is a great group to be a part of!
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    • Kristi Campbell - I so know what you mean about the different degrees of alone – when the kids are at school – it’s more fine, somehow. Thank you for being a part of this group!
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  • Marcia @ Menopausal Mother - Another wonderful post with a very sweet ending. I have to admit though, I got chills reading the first part. Did you ever find out who the guy on the phone was?
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    • Kristi Campbell - We never did find out who the guy was and thank you! Happy Mother’s Day!
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  • Callie Feyen - Kristi, I just love how this is constructed. I love the layers (or, maybe I should write ripples), and how each instance of your being alone illuminated an aspect of how you the strength that was growing inside of you. Really, great piece.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Aw thanks, Callie! I love the way you phrase it – that you make it sound better than it is about the strength… and Happy Happy Mother’s Day!
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  • Tamara - You’re not alone. I’d even eat a burger with egg on it for you.
    That first story is terrifying!! The second one = less so. I like that.
    The third one is terrifying too. I’d like to personally break the mouth of any kid who gives Tucker a hard time.
    Broken mouth, my foot.
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    • Kristi Campbell - You’d eat a burger with egg on it for me? Holy cow wow. I’m not even sure I’d eat one these days for me so thanks :) LOL and yeah, the first was totally terrifying. And feel free to get your Jersey butt down here and protect my kiddo (or photograph him because he is beautiful). xo
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  • My Inner Chick - OMgosh,

    the first story reminds me of that CREEPY movie when that guy calls the babysitter asking, “Have you checked the children?”

    Everything you write captures my heart & soul, darling. xx
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    • Kristi Campbell - OMG I don’t know that movie but yowza. Oh!! Wait. Scream right? Argh!!!
      And back at you to the heart and soul you. xxoo
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  • Beth Siebert - You are changing the world with each post, every shared thought and your generosity. The love you have for your son is so great that it is slowly changing the world one reader at a time.

    Trust in this. Your words are ripples and just because we can not see how far they go out and how they change the surface immediately does not mean it is not occurring. Kindergarteners, sadky so, do not read your blog.

    I wonder if Tucker could write how it feels when other people criticism him and read it to his class.

    You build and. Relate empathy with loving generous words. You are changing the world.May 10, 2015 – 10:52 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - You are so kind and generous and I thank you so so much for your sweet words!! xoxo also? YOU are changing the world – raising awareness and hope and doing the best of the good stuff, always.
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      • Beth Siebert - You are leading the pack sweetie. Never forget that! I am just following in your foot steps on your forum no less.

        Happy Mother’s Day and we are never alone either because we have you! Thank you!!!May 10, 2015 – 11:27 pmReplyCancel

        • Kristi Campbell - XO XO thank you! Not leading. Just in. Grateful for people like you!
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          • Beth Siebert - You are a great advocate. Thank goodness you are in… A little less hard with you on our side. Thank you.May 12, 2015 – 11:07 pm

  • Roshni - Oh gosh! That first story was so scary! What a creep!!
    I’m so glad that things worked out so well for you all with regard to the bullying! So nice to see that the school went into action so swiftly!
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    • Kristi Campbell - Thanks, Roshni!! And yeah, what a creep to the first story!!! Also me, too, when it comes to the bullying.
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  • Eli@coachdaddy - I can’t even pick out my favorite part of this post, but perhaps it’s the way you put us right there with you in every instance, the fear, the recognition, the anger, the despair, even. I do wish this world was a beautiful enough place for a soul like yours. I’m glad you’re in it with us, all the same.May 12, 2015 – 10:04 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Aw, Eli! I’m so glad that I’m in this world with YOU. You make it a better place, for real. Thank you.
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  • Lauren - Wow, Kristi. Your post had be at the edge of my chair, and temporarily ignoring my not-so-sleeping little ones yelling for another “check.” It was not at all what I expected to find. Thank you.May 13, 2015 – 10:31 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Thank you so much Lauren. For reading, for commenting, for sharing through another “check,” another glass of water another…
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  • Jolene @ Different Dream for My Child - This is an excellent look at both sides of being alone. But I still wish the man who called you hadn’t done it. Thanks for adding this to DifferentDream.com!
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    • Kristi Campbell - Thank you Jolene! I wish the man who called me hadn’t done it either. Funny though, until thinking about the prompt of being alone, I really hadn’t thought of it in years. Still though… thank you for Different Dream!
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  • Kim - Oh – that phone call sounds terrifying!!!
    I feel alone a lot – blogging has been one of the best things ever. Sadly, I’m blogging less and less often these days and feel less connected.
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    • Kristi Campbell - So sorry to hear you’re blogging less although I get it and haven’t blogged in almost two weeks and feel guilty but also whatever about it… xoxo here’s to feeling more connected!!
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  • Kristina - I love this. I’ve been feeling very alone in motherhood lately and I think this captures those feelings of excitement, joy, and fear of being alone.
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    • Kristi Campbell - I’m so sorry to read that you’re feeling alone in motherhood these days, Kristina. That’s so hard, and I’ve been there way too often. Sending hugs and love your way.
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  • Sarah Honey - Wow. I can’t even imagine how scary that phone call was when you were 12. Thank goodness everything turned out ok. Very true we are never alone!
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  • Tarana Khan - I can imagine how that phone call must have shaken you inside. And yes, when your child face something like that, it can make you feel so helpless and alone.May 21, 2015 – 3:00 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - The phone call was really scary Tarana! And yeah, the whole kids being mean stuff makes me feel so alone and worried.
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  • meredith - Love this! It was both chilling and comforting at the same time! You always wrote in a way that makes me think.May 21, 2015 – 6:44 pmReplyCancel

At one point in my life, being accepted was everything. In the 80’s, I permed my hair, wore fluorescent orange sweaters and pink Reeboks, blue eyeshadow, and a crappy attitude because that’s what was celebrated and included. None of those things made me especially popular, but I lived the norm and nobody in my high […]

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  • Nicki - It’s a relief, isn’t it, to be in this place of self-awareness and a confidence that we know and believe that what we’re doing for ourselves and our families IS the right thing, no matter what others may think? I love everything you say here, but especially this: “I used to love acceptance. Today, I no longer feel like we should live our lives in order to please anybody but ourselves and the greater good.” <3
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  • Kenya G. Johnson - Wow, last time I looked you had 52 minutes and you didn’t have anything. I think the best truth comes out when you don’t have time to worry about what others are going to think about what you’ve written. Online is a scary place when you share something simple or pour your heart out. People just let stupid roll off their tongue and let it hang there. Everybody’s way of life is their own, no one size fits all. I’m sure you feel better for writing this out loud. 😉
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  • My Inner Chick - Preach it, Mama.

    Once we get to that point (of not caring what others think)….We are LIBERATED!

    Love from MN. xxx
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  • Aliie - I’m so sorry your struggled with the prompt, so did I. I love the 23 year old you – so chick:)!. I love your village and I love the fact that you don’t care what I have to say – seriously. This may sound weird, but I was almost going to go there with my love/hate thing, but ending up on road trip…ugh!
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    • Kristi Campbell - Nah, Allie! I struggled with it because of my week, not because of the prompt. Please know that. I can usually think of something no matter what the prompt. I mean, I wrote a tribute to my dog for something like “So cool” a couple years ago. It’s more that I just was floundering this week. And isn’t floundering a weird word? Is it because of the fish??? I loved yours so stop!
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  • christine - There is no such thing as too old for a pull up at night. Some kids just have a hard time with it for a variety of reasons. (I know kids who wore them til they were 10.) Oh, and a child who drank milk from a bottle til she was 8. Just sayin. :)

    We all want and need a village. We just don’t need that village to include everyone in the world. It’s an awesome feeling when you realize that being like everyone isn’t necessary in the least.
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  • Kerri - As one of the very first readers of your journey I can say that I have been witness to that growth you are writing about. From wanting to be accepted, to wanting to accept my future son in law as he is (yourself and the world), to learning on what advice to take, what advice to throw away and what advice to say yes that makes sense but um…we are doing something different.

    You, my friend are incredible and I am glad to have known you all this time.
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  • April G - I’m sure he wouldn’t want me to reveal this, but my son still wets the bed. I can’t get up with a third child at night and his father was a late bed wetter too… so it slides, for now.
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  • Kim - Good for you for not letting anyone convince you to do something that you and Tucker aren’t ready to do.
    My youngest son slept in a pull-up until he was 5 because he slept so soundly he couldn’t get up at night. Even after giving up the pull-up he still had accidents about 1-2x a week for awhile. I did find that layering 2 sets of sheets with a waterproof mattress pad between them helped at night – I could have the wet stuff stripped off by the time he was cleaned up:)
    He also sucked his thumb at night until he was 8 – the only reason he stopped is because he had to wear a retainer at night for a summer and that made it too hard to suck his thumb – I’m happy to say that at 14 his thumb that used to be half the size of the other is full size!!!
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  • Sarah - “Now, I’m no longer sure that autism is the word that fits him best, although it’s close and I find community there.”

    Yes, me, too! As you know. Glad you and Robert and Tucker are in our village. Glad potty training took forever with someone else’s kid, too.
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  • Lisa @ Golden Spoons - I think you are right about both – deep down we do all want to fit in and be accepted (Pretty sure that’s why I have such an issue with body image), BUT at the same time it doesn’t matter what others think and we shouldn’t spend our lives trying to please everyone else. I need to remember that.
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    • Kristi Campbell - I think it’s hard to not worry about what other people think and sometimes, it can be motivating (the best shape I was in ever has been when I’m in a new relationship and so motivated to exercise). Gah. But yeah, what other people thinks doesn’t always matter.
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  • Deb - So interesting. I think I somehow walk the line between wanting to fit in but also wanting to go against the grain all the time. Whenever something I’m into becomes super mainstream, I find it less compelling. (This could explain my persistent ambivalence about blogging.) Anyway, you are so clearly an amazing mom to your little boy; it is harder for you than for those with “typical” kids, and I’m sorry about that. I’m glad you are starting to care less about what other people think.

    Ps: Perm, blue eyeshadow, leather jacket, crappy attitude, flip bangs: check check check check check. Also, H can sleep in a freaking diaper until he gets married for all I care. As long as he is trained during the day. 😉
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  • Lisa @ The Meaning of Me - Humans are social creatures – it is in our nature to desire acceptance and inclusion. Even when we say we want to do it our way. And that comes the part that is so very human, the part that has no choice but to be true to our Self.
    As for the 80s…acid wash jeans and that very particular cut of oversized sweater. Jeans jacket. The hair…oh the hair. One of these days I’m going to share a picture of my 80s hair. If I had purchased stock in Rave hairspray I’d be a wealthy woman today based on my consumption alone.May 2, 2015 – 2:57 amReplyCancel

  • Elizabeth - I love how you always end your posts with a line, phrase, thought that is impacting and though-provoking. Living for the greater good is uplifting and inspiring on this Sat. morning. Thank you!
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  • Beth Siebert - I struggle with the biochemical component of my son’s rare (2 diseases). One if Landau Kleffner Syndrome (LKS) which only 201 people have been diagnosed with internally since the 1950(s) and his mitochondrial cytopathy.

    When I sit with other people it is hard for me to have regular conversations not about biochemistry therefore I can’t fit in and be the parent my son needs,May 3, 2015 – 1:24 amReplyCancel

  • Sandy - Wow! Wonderfully written and perfectly said. It is fantastic to have supportive people around us but you’re right. While support and acceptance and a feeling of not being alone is fantastic, advice should only be meant as suggestive. I know I have a hard time with that sometimes but not as much anymore. You have to be true to you and your family. You have to do what works for you. I’d support you no matter what…but you already know that.
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  • Tamara - I can dig that for sure. I mean, I’m from New Jersey. Girls there do hair and makeup just to get gas.. that they don’t even pump themselves!
    I’ve found that I’m less awkward going my own way. Of course I still care, but not as much.
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  • Sakshi - That one phone call from you has changed our lives. The twins were always happy kids, but after talking to you, I am back to being a happy mom. :)May 4, 2015 – 4:30 pmReplyCancel

Today’s Our Land Series post was authored by the incredible mama bear Beth Siebert. Beth is a wealth of knowledge on special needs and on the rights that all of our superhero kids have. She’s involved in advocacy, is amazingly up-to-date on the legal aspects of raising a child who requires support and specialized medical treatment, […]

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  • Elizabeth Siebert - Kristi thank you for being the incredible advocate, friend and awesome writer/ editor who made this article shine and sparkle. You make diamonds from coal with your love and inner beauty and inspire all of us to be better people, parents, advocates and writers. Thank you!April 27, 2015 – 10:58 pmReplyCancel

  • Shay from Trashy Blog - This is completely awesome. True angels, for sure!
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  • Kerri - My friend’s dad is a pilot for Angel Flight in New England. He is a retired HUGE airline commercial pilot and feels that doing this is the best way to spend his retirement. Not only does he get to meet some great kids, he gets to share his love of the skies with him. I’m so glad, Beth, that your son gets to meet these incredible men & women.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Really Kerri? That’s so awesome. I’d never heard of it before Beth told me about it!
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    • Beth Siebert - Hi Kerri,

      Lovely to meet you. You are so right about the Angel Flight people. They are all INCREDIBLE! Just the most sage people in the world. Their love of aviation and children with exceptional healthcare and all exceptionalities is so incredibly humbling and endearing. Thank you for reading my article (Actually Kristi gets billing here because she helped me a lot and provided the forum for all people to come together a celebrate love and acceptance of every diversity.). It is humbling to be a recipient of Angel Flight but then to get to share this wonderful experience ion Kristi’s blog is a wonderful experience as well plus I got to meet you! Thank you!April 28, 2015 – 7:44 pmReplyCancel

  • Pattie - What a wonderful gift these pilots give to their guests! Thank you for sharing this Kristi (you are always the bestest ever)and Beth, as I am sure like me, many people don’t know about Angel Flights. I hope that more people who can benefit from this wonderful service will see this post. Lots of love to both of you!
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    • Kristi Campbell - Pattie,
      HI! And thank you so much for coming – I’d never heard of them either and so hope that people will know they have options for traveling to medical appointments when needed!
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    • Beth Siebert - Hi Pattie,

      I’d have to agree with you Kristi is the best ever as ai would have never had the courage or forum to publish this story without her, She helped me a lot!!

      The pilots have all been incredible human beings and very diverse, I knew about this air charity but was very reluctant until I meet our first set of pilots. Those guys were such pros the flight was smoother then had it been a. commercial airliner.

      The other pilots have all been brilliant as well. It is a great experience too because I am teaching my son about general aviation as we fly in different airplanes.

      It is very nice to meet you as well and thank you for reading our story. From your lips to God’s ears that this blog article helps other families. The Air Charity Network aka Angel Flight organization and pilots could not be appreciated more by us. Thank you for leaving a comment.April 28, 2015 – 7:56 pmReplyCancel

  • Emily - Wow, what an incredible charity and organization…I had never heard of this before, but I’m so glad it is available for families like yours who truly can benefit from it. Thank you for sharing this with us!
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    • Kristi Campbell - I agree, Emily! I’d never heard of them! So glad they’re there, and think “I want to do something like that when I retire!” (but don’t know how to fly – something like that though)
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      • Beth Siebert - Never too late to learn to fly Kristi but what you do here is so important and helps so many families. I think you have found your calling, Flying for you can be a hobby.April 28, 2015 – 7:58 pmReplyCancel

    • Beth Siebert - Hi Emily,

      Thank you for commenting and it is nice to meet you. It is a tremendous benefit for us physically, emotionally and spiritually.

      First, it cuts the trips down from eight hours of driving to approximately two hours of flying. My son’s mitochondrial cytopathy is characterized by extremely low energy. For him to travel for eight hours in a car is exhausting but up in a plane for two hours and he is feeling great physically.

      Second, the pilots are such wonderful positive people. If Kristi ever lets me write again for this site (I require a lot of help from her so I wouldn’t blame her if she wanted a more seasoned talented writer.). I will share a story of one of the pilots whose daughter was born into the same NICU as Alex. Quite literally, we lived at the same hospital for a month together, in the same room, both praying our respective children would make it. Both children survived and he flies Angel Flight missions now in his spare time. The pilots are just so loving and accepting. It is such a positive emotional experience. You literally feel like you are in the hands of one of God’s Angels (Sorry so sappy but true.). So it is a very emotionally supportive experience.

      Third, just flying in the heavens is a very spiritual experience for me. You look down to the Earth and problems seem so tiny and the heavens vast, open, inviting to everyone who surveys them. It is almost a religious experience for me. There is also the rocking of the plane which makes some people airsick but for me it reminds me of being in the rocking chair holding Alex. Reminds Alex of it too because he often falls a sleep.

      Thank you for commenting and allowing me to share this awesome experience with you,April 28, 2015 – 8:13 pmReplyCancel

  • Allie - I have never heard of a doctor needing to sign off on flying? Is that because of the rare form of Autism that Alex has – or his other condition? I’ve taken my son up in the air a few times and it never occurred to me to clear it with his doctor. Uh-oh…
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  • Beth Siebert - Hi Allie,

    Great question!!!

    The medical clearance is because my son has severe medical complexities. I believe it is Angel Flight policy but do not quote me and I have had to get a medical clearance for my son to fly commercial when he was younger and more medically fragile so I could administer medicine in flight which was challenging when TSA had the “no liquid” rule. Fortunately, TSA worked with me, once I had medical clearances, and I could carry medicines, breast milk, etc.

    If your son does not requires medication administration and no one has asked then your are probably fine.

    Thanks for leaving the question and I bet your son loves flying in the heavens as much as Alex.April 29, 2015 – 10:53 amReplyCancel

  • Tamara - Wow, Angel Flights is the perfect name for this.
    I love that he sleeps through the bumpiness. I think I might too, if I were a less anxious flyer. Anxiety often has me tossing and turning or rocking a bit, at least when I was younger, so it would probably soothe me.
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    • Beth Siebert - It is very calming like a rocking chair. You’d probably love it if you needed the service. Besides the pilots are so calm cool and collected you’d leave your anxiety on the Tarmac upon take off.April 29, 2015 – 1:55 pmReplyCancel

  • Elizabeth - This is incredible! I love this story, its grace and compassion and practical problem solving. Thank you for sharing it!
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    • Beth Siebert - It is a very wonderful loving charity. Thank you for reading and commenting but to be clear none of this would have been possible without the awesome advocate Kristi Rieger Campbell who took made my work shine and provided a forum for me to share our story. Thanks to Angel Flight, thanks to you for reading and commenting and thank you Kristi R. Campbell who unites us all with her huge fantastically loving and accepting heart.April 29, 2015 – 2:02 pmReplyCancel

  • Kenya G. Johnson - Downgraded from Lady GaGa. Too cute. Air Charity Network is a wonderful organization that I hadn’t heard of before. I am glad to hear they in addition to taking patients on these flights that they are also genuinely caring people.May 1, 2015 – 6:30 amReplyCancel

    • Beth Siebert - Hello Kenya,

      It is true. My son’s heart belongs to Lady Gaga. She has reach! Although on take off and landing in the plane, when he is a little frightened, he remembers he loves his dear old Mum. He grabs me and hugs me.

      Air Charity Network also know as Angel Flight love their passengers. Everyone at Angel Flight I have met is super generous, kind hearted and sensitive. It is one of the most charitable organization I have encountered. Angel Flight is awesome.

      Thank you reading our story and leaving a comment.May 1, 2015 – 8:33 amReplyCancel

When I’m running errands, sorting through bills, or trying to remain present while playing with my son in grass and gravel, I wonder. I wonder about the what if’s and about the lives I am not living because I mostly live only this one. I wonder about the people I’ve walked away from, and about […]

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  • Allie - I wonder too – about all of it, for you and me. And damn, we kind of did it again, didn’t we? And how adorable it little tiny tucker:). ANd yes, find that mom. And call ME!April 23, 2015 – 10:04 pmReplyCancel

  • Dana - I believe that too, Kristi. I will hug my kids as they go to bed, and I hope that will make them smile. I know it will make me smile. I know you wonder if you are doing enough with Tucker…you are.
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  • Jeannine Gallo - Hi Kristi.
    I believe I was meant to find your posts and follow your journey to help put things in perspective and to give hope.
    I believe that you are sharing difficult yet amazing experiences about Tucker’s beautiful life and helping so many others who can relate and may feel hopeless and lost.
    You are an AMAZING person and without knowing you, I feel blessed to be following you on this confusing, messy, enlightening, journey about our children finding their way. THANK YOU!April 23, 2015 – 10:31 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Hi, Jeannine,
      First, welcome and FIRST before welcome, thank you. I’m so so glad that you’ve found a place to feel less alone. I so hope that you know that by writing that you feel less alone, that I do as well. Here’s to being together and not feeling hopeless or lost – OR WHEN WE DO (because we will), having one another. Thank you so much for finding me. I’d love to hear more of your story, when you’re ready to share it, if you’d like. If not, that’s okay too because no judgement here and just hugs and mama love for those of us who need it sometimes and always. Because both are okay.
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  • Emily - I wonder about life after death too…I also want to believe in it. And the “what ifs” is something I spend time thinking about too. In fact, a little chunk of my memoir is devoted to the “what if” I had made that ‘left’ turn instead of the ‘right.’? Which then makes me wonder if I’ll ever actually publish that memoir…
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  • JT Walters - I wonder if the wonderful world changing Kristi Campbell will ever realize how much she has already changed our world, her world and Tucker’s world through her writing and advocacy?

    Why would superwoman ever question her own powers? For us mere earthlings on here we are in awe of you and wish we just had a piece or even a little string from your super cape!April 24, 2015 – 12:06 amReplyCancel

  • Mimi - Kristi, this line: “I believe in Early Intervention, a mom’s intuition, and in the power of wishes and work and whimsy”could be my motto when it comes to my youngest child. I ran into his original speech therapist today, and every time I see her I just want to hug her because I believe without her early intervention, my son would not communicate with words in the same way he does now. We are still on our journey with his speech, but his road is all the smoother because of her.
    Thank you, Kristi, for helping this mom feel like someone out there gets it. I wonder what you would think about the tears and smiles you have brought me as I’ve read your posts and nodded along with every word you write. : )April 24, 2015 – 1:07 amReplyCancel

  • Nicki - Reading this made me feel so incredibly lucky to know you and to count you as a friend and very important person in my life. The things you wonder about, the things you believe, the honesty, kindness, compassion, goodness that you are… it’s all right here. Thank you. xoxo
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  • Janine Huldie - Aw, beautiful and I think as moms we just often wonder about so much and everything where our kids are concerned. At least, I know I totally do.April 24, 2015 – 2:31 amReplyCancel

  • Christine Carter - OH such a beautiful post, Kristi Rieger Campbell. I love how you sort through your thoughts so intentionally… and with so much love pouring from your mama heart. Oh, that Tucker is just so lucky to have you. <3April 24, 2015 – 2:56 amReplyCancel

  • Kirstenjill Hudkins Robbins - The part about wondering about the people who leave your life made me really think. Sometimes they come back to you in really fleeting memories and then you’re left wonderng why they were every really that important. Or is that just me. And that Tucker…just heartmeltingly cute.April 24, 2015 – 3:28 amReplyCancel

  • Lizzi Rogers - Hella powerful, my friend (and I smiled to know the ‘behind the scenes’ on your comment about knowing what day it was) and as ever, you write beautifully under pressure. INCREDIBLE challenge in the idea that in the next ten minutes we have the power to improve someone’s day. My immediate thought was Husby, followed by “I don’t want to” – hmmmmm!

    Keep nurturing Tucker’s understanding that he can change the world and that he’s a powerful being. Look at what he inspires YOU to do! He has huge power, and so much love…he’s amazing.April 24, 2015 – 6:10 amReplyCancel

  • Robin - I so feel what you feel, Kristi, so many of the “what ifs” and “am I doing enough?” and “do I have the strength”. It’s interesting, your question about whether it was easier when Tucker was younger and less aware. My son is 10 now, and there’s definitely this feeling, as they get a little older, when they start comparing. And start questioning And start wondering. Is it just me who is different? Is it just me who can’t sit still? Is it just me who gets anxious? Is it just me w/the food allergy and why? The question of “fairness” becomes evident to them, and there are so any things that just aren’t..it is so hard to know as a parent whether you are doing enough. Deep down we have to tell ourselves, we are… we are! A perfect version of you does exist, and that is you today. Now. The one with the not-so perfect sheets, and the dirt on her nails, has her priorities straight. Definitely! But more sleep–we mom’s need that, I’m working on that goal too!April 24, 2015 – 6:31 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Robin,
      Love this comment! Thank you! It’s true though, I think, that it does get harder as our kids learn about fairness and differences and just all of that… Tucker never seemed to be aware of his delays before and now seems to be hyper-aware. Or, maybe, he’s always been aware, and now has the language to express it. Either way – hard! The day he asked me what a weirdo was almost broke my heart…
      Here’s to being who we are and learning to accept that it’s enough and here’s to finding a way to get more sleep!!!
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  • Marisa - We all have the wonders and the doubt too doing the best we can sometimes isn’t good enough, sometimes it’s all we have…you’re a great mom.April 24, 2015 – 6:50 amReplyCancel

  • Kerri - Don’t wonder, know. Know that your love and your advocacy and your educating yourself will make sure that as Tucker becomes more “aware” he will not think of himself as broken but perfect Tucker. Because he is perfectly him, and that is what you are teaching him as you dig in the dirt to find worms (ew) as you work within the school to get him the best education possible, you are not treating him any different than you would a “typical” son. Because he is typical, he’s yours and he is as unbroken as can be.
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  • Susan Zutautas - Tucker couldn’t have chosen a better Mom than you.April 24, 2015 – 9:09 amReplyCancel

  • jamie@southmainmuse - I so love all this. My children have struggles too and as mom you want them to believe anything is possible. xoxoApril 24, 2015 – 10:03 amReplyCancel

  • Nina - “I wonder whether I’m doing enough to help Tucker know that he has the power to change the world. I wonder how to help myself know the same.” <– so powerful. Because really, a lot of it affects us and takes belief on our part as well. I truly believe each person no matter what has an opportunity to change the world, and sometimes when we don't have the same advantages as others, it pushes even more so to compensate and do even more amazing things.
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  • Kenya G. Johnson - Beautiful post Kristi. I hope you can find that mom or she at least finds you. I can’t imagine the despair of someone to say “I give up” in regards to their child.

    LOVE the, “Where’s Tucker?” video.April 24, 2015 – 11:09 amReplyCancel

  • Elizabeth - Lovely. All those important questions we ask ourselves so beautifully stated.
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  • Ruchira Khanna - jeez! this was another powerful post, Kristi. And no doubts, you are doing a fine job with your little man…that chuckle at that age and the updates I read on FB about him. He sure has found a good home :)
    xoxoApril 24, 2015 – 2:40 pmReplyCancel

  • K - What a gorgeous post. Praying that that mom finds her way to you and your words somehow…your blog has made such a profound difference in the lives of so many.

    And I teared up a bit at the part about your son telling you that his mouth is broken. I hope someday he realizes that no part of him is broken at all, regardless of whether he can articulate all of his sounds. I remember when I realized that my disability was a Forever Thing and it’s a hard thing to stomach. Sometimes I still feel broken — sometimes we ALL do, right? — but our challenges shape us…if we let them, they make us . In the end, the L’s don’t really matter. The world is a better place because you and Tucker are in it, just the way you are.
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    • Kristi Campbell - K – I so always love your perspective and look forward to it so much! I so hope that he also realizes that he’s not broken – just a little bit different but, like you have said and know, it’s hard when you’re a little kid who realizes that you’re different. I can’t stand that part actually. I wish differences were just like hair color or something – each of us has gifts and struggles. You’re right – in the end, the L’s don’t matter… and thank you. The world is better because I know YOU <3
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  • marcia @ Menopausal Mother - Words and actions are powerful things…but sometimes all it takes is a certain look, and that can speak volumes. I’ve wandered down that ‘ I wonder if…” road so many times and have finally come to accept that I’m right where I was intended to be. No other life I can imagine would be better than this, despite the bumpy ride.
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  • Lisa Moskowitz Sadikman - This wondering of yours is very powerful. It opened me up to wondering of my own that I think I avoid — I’m so hell bent on making what exists work instead of entertaining moments of change. Then the call to believe. Yes. xoApril 25, 2015 – 1:19 amReplyCancel

  • The Golden Spoons - I think Tucker is already changing the world through you and your words. (Which means you are changing the world, too, my firend!) You are a wonderful mom – your love for him pours out in every post you write. Cheers to wondering AND beleiving!April 25, 2015 – 2:00 pmReplyCancel

  • Seana Turner - I think a lot of these wonderings are things all of us… and especially Moms… ponder. Wondering is a healthy part of life. My daughter had speech issues as well, and that has led to an interest in speech pathology and audiology as she enters college. It’s amazing how life unfolds.April 25, 2015 – 3:31 pmReplyCancel

  • ivy - I suspect the “what ifs” and “am I doing enoughs” persist through a lifetime despite any of the qualities of your children. Cuz it has to do with being a mom … not with being a kid. And take my word… it hasnt stopped yet and my kid has at least 20 years on yours. Just keep doing what your doing and hold on tight… its working. THat boy of yours is gonna fly even higher than he already does now!
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  • Kristi - What Ivy said. I just do the best I can, knowing that I will make mistakes, and hope that God will make everything right in the end.
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  • Heidi Hotzler North - love your posts, as always, any my son too, is becoming more aware, it’s a blessing and a torture for a mom to watch, wanting to participate with other kids but not quite knowing how or having the right words to even greet them without prompting. But, with every step of progress, we face new challenges, it’s quite a new day every day.April 26, 2015 – 3:59 pmReplyCancel

  • Tamara - That video is of the cutest videos I’ve ever seen! Chock full of communication.
    Your afterlife paragraph chilled me. I know sometimes the deep thinkers/writers think deep/writerly things and wonder if anyone else thinks those things, but then realizes we all probably do.
    My afterlife thoughts are ones I wonder if I’m alone in. I couldn’t possibly be!
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  • Kim - I so agree that communication often occurs without a single word!!
    I think there is an afterlife – this is something that my 16 year old has been talking about a lot lately.
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    • Kristi Campbell - I do now *know* from seeing some of my friends’ special needs kids that communication exists without words, even at older ages. For Tucker, it definitely did before he was ever able to speak and wow – that’s awesome that your 16yo has been talking about the afterlife. I think kids are more sure than we are at times. But the we think about being moms and we have to be sure…
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  • Roshni - Ah, the pee on the rim! I regret to tell you, my friend, that that almost never goes away! 😛
    I used to indulge in ‘what’if’s too but I believe that we are all doing the best we can! And, I know that you are, for sure!!
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  • Sandy - Well, hello Sunday morning tears. Fucking beautiful, Kristi. That’s all I’ve got.
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  • Tarana Khan Siddiqi - I think, through this beautiful post, you may have reached out to many people and made them feel better about everything. It’s such an important message.May 4, 2015 – 8:29 pmReplyCancel

  • Carin Kilby Clark - I love this! And yes, we all have the power. This is such a beautiful post. Thanks so much for sharing with us. xo
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  • Sarah Honey - I would love to have a long chat with that boy on the bus and that mom! I’m sad that that boy is going up without compassion. The world is a hard enough place. And what if you are doing exactly what you are suppose to be doing in this moment and it’s this! All this!May 6, 2015 – 8:29 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Me too Sarah! I’m still upset about it although the school did an amazing job handling it quickly and gracefully. Still GRRRR!!! xo
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  • Stephanie Smith Sprenger - I seriously could not love this any more. That baby video (YES, it is the most perfect form of communication), sweet Tucker and his beautiful words, and all that wondering about the other lives you maybe could have lived. I think about this stuff all the time. You always move me with your words.May 8, 2015 – 4:41 pmReplyCancel

  • Meredith Ethington - Gorgeous post! You have one of the biggest hearts out there. And, Tucker is one lucky kid. :)May 8, 2015 – 11:20 pmReplyCancel

  • Natalia Bayona Frost - Oh my gosh! what a beautiful post, I loved the part that says: “Communicating, in whatever way we each are able to, is about connection, sharing what we want, getting our needs met, and about love.” I thought about my daughter and this so true, thank you for saying it so beautifully!May 10, 2015 – 1:50 amReplyCancel

On the last day of normal, my husband took a photo of my swollen belly, just before we went to dinner. We ordered extravagantly from the chichi menu at our non-kid-friendly favorite restaurant. “Can you believe that tomorrow, at this time, we’ll have a baby?” I said. “Let’s keep us,” he said. And I agreed. But […]

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  • Nicki - Sigh. I can’t get enough of this. I’ve read it over and over… then and now again. Such a beautiful, calming perspective. I feel like I can breathe for the first time today after reading this. “The first day of the world was today.” Thank you darling Kristi.
    And how wonderful it is to host FTSF with you and Jena. Love and gratitude. xxx
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  • Emily - I totally get the first and last days of the world situations — we’ve had a few of those and they can be both really, really good and really, really bad. Either way, it’s like you said: the last day of the world is often the first. Yes, so true! And your pictures above? Always a treat, especially the one with the thought bubbles. :)
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  • Dana - I have just recently started thinking of lasts as firsts – do you think that comes with age? How breathtaking to follow you on this journey of your life that you tell with your words.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Dana,
      I dunno if it comes from age but probably. When we’re young, it’s so easy to just focus on the next first, or on the heartbreaking ending of what’s last that is hard to remember later… or something like that.
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  • Sarah - OK, Robert’s mole. Never knew that, and though it seems entirely beside the point, could the timing have been worse? Good that it’s fixed. Enough for now.
    Yeah. Birth is the end of one world. A familiar and easier one but not one I’d want back either.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Sarah,
      Yeah, the timing was horrible. It’s okay enough for now… which is enough, for now. Isn’t it weird how having a baby changes us so much? I guess it’s not weird – it’s how It Should Be but still… the things we think we’ll be like…
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  • La Dale - Ugh, this got me thinking so much about how Johanna’s birth was the end of so many things for me, including my mother’s life, but the beginning of Christ pouring down his grace into my life. And then there were tears. Darn you lady for making me sob! Great post!April 16, 2015 – 11:01 pmReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Sorry for the tears, La Dale! But it’s true right? I mean the new beginnings are so much more blessed than the last days. The last days should be loved and appreciated too, but the new ones? Are now! :)
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  • Michelle AKA Crumpets and Bollocks - I too have had many last days of one world before beginning another, and all 3 of my girls coming into this world was one of those days. Great post. So glad you were able to notice your husband’s mole. You probably saved his life.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Michelle,
      Thanks! I know about the last days – you’ve had a lot. I’ve had a lot. I guess we all have and yeah, I’m really really REALLY glad I noticed his mole, too. Even if the timing kinda sucked.
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  • Jena - I am so lucky to be here with you. On the last day, and the first. You inspire me so.April 16, 2015 – 11:07 pmReplyCancel

  • April G - Beautiful. So touching. I’m still not sure which way I’ll take this prompt. I can definitely agree that the birth of my son really changed my life and the last day of my old life was gone and now my life is anew.
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  • ruchira - Wow! just plain wow!
    I so absolutely loved your take on this prompt.

    So beautiful and so apt and so everything!

    xoxoApril 16, 2015 – 11:36 pmReplyCancel

  • Lisa @ The Meaning of Me - You always manage to express what I feel. Spot on, my friend. I like to look at life this way. ..every end is also a beginning. I have found that to be true over and over many times.April 17, 2015 – 1:08 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - I love that we feel the same feels, Lisa! We MUST meet up at Dutch Wonderland this summer! And yeah, I like to remember that each ending is a beginning as well. It makes them easier and more beautiful, I think.
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  • Janine Huldie - I read this shaking my head and getting this so very much. Seriously, it was most definitely the first day of my world when I had both my girls. And the guilt on days when they are off or out early is so real,but also starting to see more and more worthy of me walking away from work to just enjoy being in the moment.April 17, 2015 – 2:05 amReplyCancel

  • Kelly McKenzie - “And that because it’s the last, it’s also the first.” That is just the very best way to look at all of this exhausting, hilarious, inspiring, mixed up chaotic craziness that we call life. As for your prayer – well, damn. May it be eons and eons before it comes true. When you’re ready. And on your terms.April 17, 2015 – 2:08 amReplyCancel

  • Kathy Radigan - You really got me with this one Kristi. I so relate to that feeling on so many levels. Just beautiful!April 17, 2015 – 2:19 amReplyCancel

  • Jessica Herndon Worgul - Powerful and beautiful. Also, I love the pictures of your family!April 17, 2015 – 3:45 amReplyCancel

  • Lizzi Rogers - It’s already taken back. These things don’t get held against you – it’s gone. Done. Finished and dealt with. That’s kinda the point.April 17, 2015 – 6:09 amReplyCancel

  • Kenya G. Johnson - Those words!!! The last day of the world is often the first. Wow. This was so beautiful. I wish I had thought of such a way to finish the sentence. Smh at the awesomeness of this post and the meme. Love it.

    Btw we’ve talked about this before about how we think unrationale and the worst of things might happen, so I totally felt for you when Robert had his surgery. I know you were thinking way beyond necessary. 😉April 17, 2015 – 6:41 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Kenya! Still time to link up, my friend! And um what is smh??? Gawd, I’m a moron when it comes to that stuff. You, however are fleek (on fleek??). It’s true though right? I mean the last day stuff? And I know what you mean about thinking about the worst of things and thank you for getting where I went with the dumb thoughts… yup. Exactly.
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  • Bev - This is just absolutely gorgeous. There’s so many things in life that can completely change the course of things, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. It may feel like the end of your world, but it can also mean the beginning of a new and different life. Beautiful take on the prompt!
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  • Allie - Kristi! How adorable are you with the big ole belly?!?!?! And I don’t think I’ve ever seen a picture of your husband? So handsome. And, as always, beautiful words. Succinct and eloquent – and inspiring. I kind of needed them today. Today is the first day off crazy season, and I shall change my attitude and be grateful for the chaos. Now I’m off to the special Olympics, in the rain. And I will not curse the powers that be, as the rain pelts down on me, for not cancelling. Should be interesting – according to B’s teacher, everyone is complaining that B shouldn’t be able to rub the 50 yard dash this year, because he’s now a professional!April 17, 2015 – 8:43 amReplyCancel

    • Kristi Campbell - Allie! Are you kidding that people are saying Bear can’t run because he’s now a “professional???” People are so weird (and mean and stupid) sometimes. Argh! Sorry about the rain though. It’s not fun any time you have to be out in it unless it’s on purpose (like if you’re drinking wine and decide to dance in it which I only maybe did once in NYC with my friend and it wasn’t dancing, it was running in Central Park)… You’ve never seen a pic of Robert? Wow. He is handsome. :) And thank you!
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  • Katy @ Experienced Bad Mom - Another moving post. I related most to your husband’s cancer. I just had a wide local excision to have an evolving mole removed. As I went to the doctor’s appts and outpatient surgery and then recuperated, I could only laugh every time I remembered what one doctor told me. “You will not die from melanoma now,” he said. “Because you will find it early.” Double edged sword, that.
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  • Anna Fitfunner - Thanks for this post. It makes me use my brain in unaccustomed ways. I agree that endings can be beginnings, and that is how life progresses. I’m not sure about your momentary conversation with God. I don’t think that we can trade away our lives like that. Each of us has the power to be a blessing to the world, and owe it to ourselves and our families to explore and realize our potential. You are certainly growing and inspiring!April 17, 2015 – 1:11 pmReplyCancel

  • Chris Carter - No worries about that prayer, sweet friend. It is already gone, with your first breath of hope. I’ve had that same prayer many times…

    Every end of the world can take us to new heights of living really. Funny how that happens- from the deepest depths to the greatest heights. I’m so glad your hubs is okay. And You found grace and giving in Kindergarten. And that Tucker is growing up beautifully, just as he is. And for second chances… oh there are so many of them that feel like the first day of the world. Thank God for them.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Chris! You’ve had that same prayer???? Thank you!!! For real???
      And yes, from the deepest depths to the greatest heights. I love that expression. I’m glad that Robert is okay too and that we did find grace in kindergarten. I wasn’t sure that’d be the case, but it’s been wonderful. Thank God for all of the first days. And you.
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  • Elizabeth - Love the pictures so much! And “the last day of the world is often the first” is an amazing statement, full of all kinds of layers and interesting ways it can be applied to life. Love it!
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  • Marcia @ Menopausal Mother - You never cease to amaze me with what you write from these “finish the sentence” prompts. This is another example of one of your thought-provoking, beautifully written, poignant posts. I hope that from now on, every day will feel like a new world, filled with love and so much happiness!
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  • Lisa @ Golden Spoons - Beautiful, Kristi! Interesting to think that each and every day could be the last day of something AND the first day of something else – maybe something better. And, that. sometimes, what we think is the end of the world really isn’t – just the beginning of a new one. I don’t talk much about religion, but your line about taking back that prayer got to me. The God I believe in doesn’t do “take backs” because he doesn’t have to. When you prayed that prayer, he knew what was in your future – he knew about Tucker and what a strong, beautiful mama you would be. He knows now that you didn’t mean that prayer – or that you don’t mean it anymore. He hears the spoken and the unspoken. He knows. No need for take backs. Let that go, XOXO
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    • Kristi Campbell - Thank you Lisa! I think it’s true – what feels like the end of the world, at the time, is so often the beginning of whatever’s coming next, but also can be scary and painful. Thank you too for your thoughts on prayers and “take backs” and how He doesn’t have to… I’m trying to let that go. It’s hard though, that I ever even thought it… but again, thank you.
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  • alisa/icescreammama - love this. so touching. it’s all about the firsts and the lasts.. but there’s also a lot in the middle. :)April 18, 2015 – 9:16 amReplyCancel

  • Katia - Wow.
    I just read this with my breath held, as I often read your posts, and you made me feel so many things that I feel depleted of words. I think that this is such an incredible interpretation of the prompt and every word hit home. I believe the old prayer was forgotten or dismissed. My child prays for so many sily things as have I. Those we pray to understand. Giant hug to you.
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  • Kim - It seems like every stage of like brings us a new first day and another last day. Some of the first days bring great new adventures and some of them aren’t so good.
    I feel like I’m reaching a point in my mom journey where the lasts are coming too fast and the firsts are all about letting go.
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  • Tamara - Ack, the mole!! So, so glad he DID go to the doctor.
    There was never an us to keep.. we were married and then I was pregnant. I don’t know an us really – we’ve been out of order and building it now.
    It’s kinda fun actually.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Yeah, ack the mole. FKFUKFKKK. But yeah, so glad he went. You’ve had an us. I promise. It’s maybe just harder to isolate now that you’re so much a we, and that’s perfectly perfect, too, ya know?
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  • My Inner Chick - **If you know how to take back a prayer, meant at the time but not meant now, please tell me because it becoming true would be the end of this world, for me. And I’m not ready yet.**

    If I wasn’t married, I think I’d want to marry you…Um, your writing that is!!

    Xx
    from MN.
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  • Roshni - Every day something new! This made me think of all the endings that were beginnings in my life too!
    I’m sure your prayer was canceled then and there because!!
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  • Joy Christi - This is so beautiful, and so true. The only consistent thing in life is change, the end of That way, the start of This way. Not what we expected, but what we learn to live with. Then as we’re getting the hang of it, it changes again. But like you already know, there is beauty and perfection in all of it.
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  • Nina - Oh this made me SO nostalgic! I loved it!
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  • Seana Turner - What an eloquent post! We all have these firsts & lasts… over and over, don’t we? As for the prayer, no need to worry on that one. The Spirit intercedes for, so God knew what you felt at that moment, but also what you would feel in a future moment, and He’s not stuck in time:)
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  • Eli@CoachDaddy - The beauty of this post is in the rawness of it. Beginnings and endings often meld together, and it’s hard to know which is toughest to manage – the beginnings or the ends.

    I know for a fact not all prayers are answered, and isn’t that a great thing? If all prayers were answered, I’d have married Kim Plato from Diff’rent Strokes when I was 9 and I’d never have had the three beautiful daughters I have today.

    Much love to you.
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    • Kristi Campbell - Thanks for putting it all into perspective, Eli. If my 12yo ones were answered, I’d have alimony and a few babies from Billy Idol now, and if my 19yo ones were, would be living with Lars from Metallica. Here’s to your beautiful daughters and my amazing little boy and to our unanswered prayers.
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  • Tarana Khan - Kristi, this gave me goosebumps because I could feel your emotions seep through your words. Thanks for sharing your story, and never stop writing!
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  • Deb - You! You always write such amazing, inventive posts with Ftsf. I wish we could always realize the end of one world so we could savor the last moments the way you did at dinner. Perhaps that’s an argument for savoring every moment. HmmmmApril 22, 2015 – 2:09 pmReplyCancel

  • Kimberly - And I’m going to say Fuck That too.
    God I love you to the moon and all the way back. I hope that you know that.
    I needed to read this. xoxo
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    • Kristi Campbell - Kim my sweets! The words Fuck That are just awesome. Freeing. And I love you huge – maybe even to Pluto which now I can’t remember if it’s still a star or it went back to planet or back to star from star to planet but it’s far away and I love you that much. xxoo
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  • Meredith - This was SO beautiful Kristi! I seriously loved it. Great job articulating the fragile nature of this life, and being a parent. :)
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